You make decisions every day, some big, some little, some are important, others are frivalous...what do you think was the biggest decision you have made that has altered your life the most...
Well Scott I have often thought about past decisions and how they have played a part in my life or how it would have been differnt. For me I think the hardest decision I made was in 1993. I was still in the Army doing a job that I feel I was made for. I was happy for the most part and had acomplished my goals I set for myself inside the military. I had a dangerous job but I was having the time of my life. Just after I returned stateside from Somalia I received a call from my mom. I could tell she was upset by her voice. My youngest brother was just diagnoised with leukemia. He has had a rough childhood with illness and had previously underwent open heart surgey when he was 5 to repair holes in his heart and has a learning disablility that basically left him at a 6th grade level. I knew that she felt that it was to much for him to overcome but she told me that it was treatable and I should stay in the service and finish out my time.
I will say that that was the first time I can remember that I actually sat down and cried. I just couldn't seem to talk about it to anyone so it kept eating at me. Eventually I made a decision to return home. My CO at the time understood the situation and based on my job and service record felt I paid my dues and helped me end my time early. So I was discharged with full honors and was allowed to come 6 months early.
It is a decision I have never regretted. I have often thought about how things would be had those events not taken place. Fact is I probably would not be here today if not for him. He is still fighting his battle. Some days are good others not so good.
He is the reason I am here at defender. He got me into SW during EP1when I had to make toy runs with him since no-one else would. So I started buying some and then dug out all my old stuff from my dads house. That lead to me searching the net and wala here I am.
But it is interesting to look at the chain of events of your life and see where it all leads. Seems sometimes that destiny takes over and you are just along for the ride.