Jedipurge -- your story stayed with me all night. I had to get up in the middle of the night and sneak into my little ones' rooms and kiss them goodnight again. I'm sorry for your loss.
Which is the only reason I even mentioned it. I've only shared this with one other person in our little community, and probably the only reason I'd shared it at the time with him is because he'd announced, not long after this had happened to us, that he was going to be a first time father. Even though being a father, or parent at all, is special I'd just kind of wanted to convey to him how special and how much of a gift it is to have a child and not to take it for granted. It's not till something bad happens that you really appreciate what you have.